I’ve Had My Fun

“Well, I’ve had my fun; I’ve had it, he thought, looking up at the swinging baskets of pale geraniums. And it was smashed to atoms- his fun, for it was half made up, as he knew very well; invented, this escapade with the girl; made up, as one makes up the better part of life, he thought- making oneself up; making her up; creating an exquisite amusement, and something more. But odd it was, and quite true; all this one could never share- it smashed to atoms.” (54)

This quote relates to a lot of running motifs and themes throughout the book, like the repeated use of flowers as imagery. It also touches on madness, ‘made up,’ ‘invented’ fun, of following a girl. There are different levels of madness and psychosis that are brought up in the book. Instances like this that are for fun and play and quite harmless, Peter even recognizes it himself, and then others that are more serious and caused by the war, Steptimus.

Heart of Darkness

“His mouth was as dry as a cinder, and his face was wet with perspiration-and tears. What was it all about? He thought it must be a horrible illusion; he thought he was dreaming; he thought he was going mad! After a while he collected his senses. What did they quarrel about? That sugar! How absurd!”

Joseph Conrad, “Heart of Darkness”, in Heart of Darkness and Other Tales (New York: Oxford University Press Inc., 2002) 21.